Even though things are going O.K. for me personally in Dickinson, North Dakota right now, I am sensing that something is very wrong in Dickinson. It is like there is so much pain, anxiety, fear, uncertainty, anger, bad thoughts, and bad intentions, that I can’t help but feel that something is very wrong.
If a psychiatrist or psychologist would analyze my thoughts on this, they would likely say one of three things: 1) You are projecting, inferring, or attributing your own thoughts and feelings onto other people; 2) You are witnessing actual events and real happenings, mentally processing these facts, arriving at legitimate conclusions, and these conclusions are being presented to you as emotions or feelings rather than in words; 3) Animals and people have a way of sensing and knowing things, that we can not explain. Maybe #3 is something that a psychiatrist or psychologist would not say.
The older that I have become, the more I believe in listening to my inner voice. Some people believe in God, Guardian Angels, Spirit Guides, or a Collective Consciousness. I believe in each of these things to some extent, some times more than other times. Perhaps one’s inner voice, is just a momentary conclusion based on one’s own lifetime of experiences.
The actual events and real happenings which I recall seeing and observing in Dickinson recently are: The Dickinson Police having a heightened desire to arrest people, even if they have to make things up; the Police having motorists pulled over on the road whenever I go out; the restaurants that I go to having very few customers; the restaurant workers appearing and behaving in an angry, unhappy, unfriendly manner; my neighbors appearing very stressed and unhappy; some neighbors moving out in an unhappy manner and my apartment building becoming more vacant; some of my friends being unable to find employment; some of my friends having to sell their possessions and possibly their home in order to survive; not one person that I know looking forward to or speaking about Thanksgiving or Christmas in a happy manner; when I go shopping, the shoppers appear and act like poor worried people, none of them appear or act like successful confident people; long lines at McDonalds drive-thru but few customers at other restaurants; property theft in Dickinson becoming much more prevalent and common.
I had been looking forward for a couple of months to see who would be announced as the new Executive Director of the Downtown Dickinson Association. I had hoped that a particular candidate that I liked would get the position, someone who I believe is a very positive, pleasant, well liked, up beat, and delightful person. Instead, the Downtown Dickinson Association never made an announcement on which candidate was selected, and they just went ahead and re-advertised for the Executive Director position without any explanation. I feel sorry for the people who applied, especially for the person that I like very much, who I hoped would be the new Executive Director.
I have just listed above many things that I recall seeing and observing in Dickinson this week. It seems that this might be enough for me to get the feeling that there is pain, anxiety, fear, uncertainty, anger, bad thoughts, and bad intentions in Dickinson. However, one of the strongest and most upsetting feelings or impressions that I am getting, is that people have the intention of victimizing others.
My warning to readers in Dickinson, is that I am getting the feeling that many people who have pain, anxiety, fear, uncertainty, anger, bad circumstances in their own life, bad thoughts, and bad intentions, would like to somehow victimize and try to bring down other people right now. This is why I am trying to stay home, and not go anywhere. It appears that many other people in Dickinson are also trying to stay home and not go anywhere currently.